January 2011
101 posts
(reblog fails)
madhatteress:
it was one of those moments, those rare moments, when logic wasn’t present. because for a second, i wanted something with my whole being and i didn’t think of the ill-consequences, only that it would for some immeasurable amount of time make me happy. and all i could see was that happiness and i wanted it, so so badly. i wanted to be normal. i didn’t want to think in circles or...
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the year ending with zero.
the lonely beginnings, the crowded memories (coming full circle), quiet nights, new people, new friends, long car rides with one parent at a time, being the witch, playing me, ups and downs and repeat, singing, time zones, moving on, the UN, france at 2 am, turning seventeen, the last time in germany for a while, senior year, comp sci with my substitute mother, new music, applying to college,...
December 2010
160 posts
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to a long-lost letter
i catch an uneasy moment of your sound and a taste of your hands from mine. words are easy and minds are difficult. i wonder, will we meet again?
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sixteen
dear friend of the awkward moments,
it’s not my fault i’m friends with creepy people who mention various of their friends who have graduated and i’m good at remembering names and i then start talking to the aforementioned graduated people in raleigh coffeeshops…and then you come too and i’m just sitting there drinking a soy latte while you two smoke and talk about...
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fifteen
dear person who i’ve spent a lot of time on the phone with,
this is ridiculous.
-j
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fourteen
dear mila kunis,
obviously I was meant to wait to do the letter about my favorite actor til after I’d seen black swan. hot damn. and i really liked your dancing too (truth).
with all sorts of admiration,
-j
“When we get out of the glass bottle of our ego and when we escape like the...”
– D. H. Lawrence (via noreason)
That moment when you're reading a book and you...
“Self-loathing is not a fucking character-builder. It doesn’t make you stronger....”
– Jane, Casual Blasphemies (via neonloneliness) (via loveyourchaos, lipsbetweenthehips)
“It’s strange that words are so inadequate. Yet, like the asthmatic struggling...”
– T.S. Eliot (via fatalistichues) (via quote-book) (via felixculpa)
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remembering
the deep strength in my limbs, this dogged soul and the fullness of sunny air. singing a song in cavernous cathedrals blazing with the trumpet sound.
where this strength was stolen to, I cannot say, and where I found it buried in tears is barely fathomable, and yet. risked and drowned and found and bright. this has been no dark december. this day, this week, this month, this year a diving board.
...
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hakuna matata
what have you accomplished today?
half of this
half of that
a thing or two that wouldn’t impress you
something you have no reason to understand
peace (oh, but i already covered that)
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eighteen
i have simple thoughts. checklisting my ways through days and meandering stumbling into ornaments and orchestration.
barely breaking a sweat and then a smile. i have simple thoughts.
anarchyofthemind:
thatradiosong:
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“Loneliness does not come from having no people around one, but from being unable...”
– Carl Jung (via loganphotography)
“The problem with stereotypes is not that they are untrue, but that they are...”
– Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie via rudochete. (via tobia) (via fyeahafrica) (via dancingonembers) (via trastorn) (via teemafbaby)
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je ne me souviens plus
j’apprends apprendre aimer.
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falling asleep with no fears, waking up with no tears. soft hair and a warped sense of time, steady mild snowfall for days upon days upon moments of light. happiness descending from a sleepy-eyed sky and beauty in the bitter cold.
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merry christmas!
-i can think and write again
-i have snow to walk in
-i can write endless stupid emails and have faith
-i ramble and ramble with repetition and desperation and end up ok
-i have enough people to tell everything in pieces and always say what i need to; i am not alone
-i have room to love many people for many reasons
-for these things i am lucky and thankful and silly and alive and sappy and...
